New York City Envy

I wrote this in January 2016 for Speakeasy, a spoken-word event run by Pooja Nansi, responding to the theme of "envy". Once, over cocktails and cigarettes, it was laid down to me that a young Singaporean with means should live abroad for a spell before turning 30. I’m 29 this year. I tell myself every … Continue reading New York City Envy


A Substantial Man

This essay was first published in 2012 on A SUBSTANTIAL MAN: Fat and Gay in a Gym Bunny’s World There is, to my mind, a gay man’s debutante ball, except it’s quite DIY. Leisurely, at one’s own pace, coming out can be awkward or beautiful, ostentatious or quiet, but it’s a ritual all the same. … Continue reading A Substantial Man


Five years ago I went through a period of massive weight loss for a whole bunch of apparent reasons, the main one being heartbreak, followed, I now see, by a lack of self-knowledge. There's been a lot of talk lately about the epidemic of loneliness amongst gay men; and my own experience of it has … Continue reading Weight

We Could Have Danced All Night- Play And the Anatomy of Coming Out

This, like a few other essays that I've written over the years,was first published on, We Could Have Danced All Night: Play And the Anatomy of Coming Out[1] The first time I saw strobe lights was at Play. That’s probably not true. But the first strobe lights I truly remember, green lasers that burned themselves … Continue reading We Could Have Danced All Night- Play And the Anatomy of Coming Out

Review: The Garden of Foolish Indulgences

Here's a review of The Garden of Foolish Indulgences by Oh Yong Hwee and Koh Hong Teng that I wrote for Art Review Asia. A shortened edited version appears in the journal's Winter 2016 edition. == In Oh Yong Hwee and Koh Hong Teng’s new graphic novel, The Garden of Foolish Indulgences, the Garden in question is Singapore. More … Continue reading Review: The Garden of Foolish Indulgences


Wrapped up this show a week ago. Lots of trepidation going in, lots of uncertainty going out. I went in thinking to try painting with a different palette, using some of the tools (naturalism, conversation, banality) I'm familiar with, and the end result was something that I find hideous and monstrous. Responses from audiences and … Continue reading Cafe